here i am

Here I am standing in the middle of turmoil


On Lost pavement but still amused

When everything around me feels like tore

With my bewildering eyes I want to see more

Someone shake me to feel the pain

But everything seems blurred in pouring rain

Knots which threaten me for so long

Now seems fading

I like the way rain mix with soul

And make everything smell so good

I don’t want to be afraid of falling

After every fall there is newness is waiting

I don’t mind walk through unknown fields

Flowers lead there colour through my cores

When I sleep under blanket of stars and bed of lawn

I woke up by chimes of my heart in new life

Don’t be afraid to see

Because for every lock its key

nothing more

It’s good to see you after so long


Your voice always gave me strength to write a song

Oh I missed that smile at lips at your corner

I always waited but you take little longer

I missed you baby a lot more than I can show

Oh baby I love you, nothing more I can say

Nothing more I can say

I am glad there is same warmth in your eyes

I have seen when you left me at airport

Somehow I felt you near all this time through your letter

My heart pound when I see you from distance

“Oh baby I love you” that’s all I got for you

I swear nothing more I can say

I can’t help but run to you so I can feel you in my hold

Without you all the time it’s been so cold

I cry but tears were of joy after long time

You hugged me tight it felt so right

All I can whisper in your ear is

“Oh baby I love you”

All this time everything was just mess and I was alone

I missed you more with every passing minute

My songs were incomplete without you

I was incomplete without you

So much I missed, touch of your lips

Your love in my heart was all I can keep

All I ever wanted is you

Nothing more I can say

love is

I Run and hide in your closet


Whenever I feel upset

Flashbacks come into mind

All memories flood like a forceful wind

You say it was long time ago

When you were in love with me

But truth is what you never see

I still in love with you

Your smell your presence still remain in your belongings

In your shirt and I cry to found something coherent

Which will explain why I still feel to love you?

After all you have done

The rain showers tears of mine

Love is serene love is kind

Nothing but reason to lose your mind

tearful eyes

Tearful eyes


Black and white days

That’s what life all about is

Numbness all I feel

When I stand in middle of highway

Stuck in paused dark time and there are no getaway

Filled with lies and blues

Still we are nothing but empty soul

Soreness is all inside

Why I should fight?

Living on an edge

What’s the use of my sage?

Tearful eyes

Black and white days

That’s all I got.

Your betrayals chased my guts


To get up again wipe away my tears

Your words hit me so hard that I know

Nothing can break me again like now

My heart is stone and I can take anything

You are nobody to tell me I am not right

I am not the girl who will cry or fight

Because you never worth it

I know you will have regret

But I assure you, you will blame your fate

Not yourself that’s makes you who you are

But I am definitely not your girl who will work

In your kitchen and neither your pet who will follow your orders

It’s my decision because it’s my life and I am the king of it

Not the pawn on your chessboard

Whenever you will see from now at yourself you will be big failure.

Black clouds get darker


My world is falling apart and end is closer

Hallucinations are feeling more real in dark

I know there is no use of try

I am not worried I’ll lose myself I am already collapsed

Everything in me is broke and my life is relapsed

There won’t be any healing

I left behind every feeling

One night one cut in my throat

And I’ll throw this pain far away.

It’s been like untouched fantasy

Until I find out its total lie

Rain out of my window makes my eyes moist

Every Drop of it like million tears

In the middle of fuss my will say find

You can fight out your fears

Even though heart ache in the night

Stars and moon wipe my tears and say find

Soon light will twinkle in your eyes

Even though I see everything smudges

As my empty train runs at dawn

Cold wind says soon there will be brighter day

Its truth I want to love I say I don’t

Because I am so fright

It’s like million pieces of my dreams

All my spirit is devastated

But there will be million colours in my dreams

And little dead flowers of hearts will be alive again.

mumbai

Smell of newness is lingering in my breath


At the dawn all connote streets are still clumsy

My dreams are dancing for shiny new rays of sun

Here everyone is running and stations are always bursting

Trains always run with extra load

Girls manage here there stilettos on rough road

Everyone always glance at their watch

Everyone have train, bus or cab to catch

But now everyone is in deep sleep after so much dash

Smoke of hot tea is all over my face

Smile and tears and strength this city gave me

Here streets are always jam with traffic or rain

All lanes wear their wits of state with fashion and hearts full of pain

Slowly whole city is waking up with big yawn

Peace in the air is disappearing with a moan

All hold it inside dreams some painful reminiscences

And it still runs with same spirit and same means.